I have quite a list ...a mountain of things to do ...things that I want to get done ...today!!!

But here I am, sitting at the computer, checking and answering email, reading blogs, making comments, posting entries (like this one). It's already after ten and I'm falling, again, into that trap where I pittle away the morning, then when I notice it's past noon, I stop to fix something to eat, and by then by the time I've finished eating, it's too late to start on "whatever".

It's my own person form of sabotage. A way of not doing what I'm not that keen on doing ...when what I want to do is nothing, but I want feel like I did make the attempt.

Of course I have the freedom to make the decision to not do "whatever", but then I have no excuse when, at the end of the day, I'm feeling lousy for my lack of discipline.

Something that can be done at anytime, often doesn't get done at all. It's amazing how much I used to accomplish when I had a full schedule to maintain.

Bitch ... Bitch ... Bitch ... Bitch ... Bitch

Just turn off the damn computer and do it!

the tea is earl grey
the hour is eight o'clock
the new day is nigh

Another morning, another opportunity to do something great ...okay maybe not great, but extraordinary ...or at the very least something special.

I end many a day knowing that I've spent it doing nothing out of the ordinary.
Of course, there has to be ordinary days.
Otherwise, how would I differentiate the special ones?

I'm due for a special day,
but they don't just happen,
I have to allow them to happen.

There's a spark somewhere inside ...I can feel it,
I just have to coax it out.

But how will it materialize?
That's the wonder of these "special" inspiration flashes.
They have a life of their own; I am just the vessel.
But ultimately, I benefit because it ends up being my special day.

Why is it that all the shit happens at once.

First the images don't upload correctly...
I don't know why Blogger sometimes accepts gifs (with transparent backgrounds) and sometimes it won't. This time it accepted them but they're behaving oddly. When I eventually turned on my older Mac, the browser didn't even display the image??? I had to upload them to my mindspring space -- which is filling up faster than I'd like.

Then I notice that two of my four projects at StatCounter aren't registering hits...
I checked the forum and found that it's not me, but one of their servers (c8 - partition 7) which evidently stopped registering hit sometimes yesterday. They didn't mention when it was gonna be fixed. You'd think they'd give you a heads up on this kinda thing so you'd know what was happening. If I were paying for this I'd be upset, but since it is a free service, I guess I have no grounds to be pissed ....but I am, nevertheless.

Then I can't access the StatCounter forum...
I tried to access the forum to post a message, actually a question: Would the missing hits show up when the problem was fixed or would they be lost? The forum wouldn't let me post the message cuz it didn't recognize my user name, password, or email address. What the fuck??? The This is I'd never posted to the forum before and I hadn't actually registered, so that was my bad ...but it still took me some time and frustration before I figured that out.

Then I notice it's already after 12 and if I haven't gotten my act together by noon, then I'm likely to not get anything done for the rest of the day. Damn! I'm still in my bathrobe. By the time I do the bathroom thing and dress, it'll be too late to start any new projects, so I'll just do nothing but perhaps watch a movie. -- I do have the new Batman disc from Netflix.

I really shouldn't even look at the computer until later in the day. I keep saying that all I'm gonna do is check my email, but after I do this and that and check with this and that, it's late in the day and I'm still at the computer and I haven't done anything else. This is a very bad habit I need to break.